Grace and peace be unto you.
During my early years as a Christian, I was taught to obey God without question or hesitation. But as I spend quality time studying his word, I realize that he is interested in my perspective. Hence, he is receptive when I share my thoughts and feelings. He uses the opportunity to encourage me, and if necessary, correct my misperceptions.
The story is told that God instructed Samuel to anoint one of Jesse’s sons as king. Initially, Samuel resisted and said that if King Saul heard, he would kill him. Consequently, God advised him to take a heifer and say that he was going to offer a sacrifice unto him, and invite Jesse to the ceremony. After which, he would tell him what to do. God’s suggestion comforted Samuel, and he obeyed (1 Samuel 16:1-3).
Samuel was very close to God. Therefore, he knew that Saul’s power and authority were no match for God’s. Yet still, he was afraid of Saul. Why? One possible explanation is that Samuel was mourning God’s rejection of Saul as king (1 Samuel 16:1). Hence, he was emotionally and psychologically vulnerable. In such state, his faith had weakened which made it difficult for him to focus on God’s All-Powerful nature. Nonetheless, God understood his vulnerability and did not reprimand him for his lack of faith.
Similar to Samuel, we will have moments of vulnerability, regardless of our maturity. Even so, God wants us to remember that he is with us (Matthew 28:20), and will guide us. If God has given you an assignment that you are reluctant to do, he is asking you to talk with him. Tell him how you feel about the assignment and why you are unwilling to do it. He already knows; he sees your thoughts and desires. And so, you can share them with him.
God gave Samuel an idea that comforted and motivated him to carry out his assignment. Likewise, he has the idea that will comfort and strengthen you. He is waiting on you to speak with him.
Heavenly Father, thanks for your patience and understanding. Help us to share our thoughts and desires with you. In Jesus’ name, amen.
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